A quiet moment before the awakening of a new year.
2012 has been a whirlwind of events, both the fastest year of my life and also the slowest.
I've cried tears of sadness and I've cried tears of more joy than I've ever felt before.
I've lost friendships near and far and I've made new friends in the most unexpected places and under surprising circumstances.
I've been terrified, hurt and disappointed..but I've also experienced more freedom, confidence and happiness than any other year I can recall.
This year has been a time of change, personal growth and achievement.
And looking back at it all there isn't a thing I would change if I could live it all over again.
As I sit here in the cosy light of the still-lit Christmas tree, I wiggle my toes deeper into Sachi's warm, abundant fur. Her rhythmic breathing is soothing, the whistling of her big olive nose, such a comforting sound for me.
Leo, who will be turning a year old in just one day and 38 minutes is sleeping soundly upstairs despite the occasional hooting and burst of laughter next door as the clock gets closer to midnight.
It's a welcome quietness here tonight.
I've never spent New Years Eve by myself before, alone with all my thoughts and I wonder why I haven't done this before.
A million thoughts and memories threaten to choke my flow of thought, every single one wanting and deserving to be written down lest I forget about them someday
as it happens to us all eventually.
But time is too short for all of it..and I'd like to try to spare you, dear reader, the agonizing pain of mentally watching someone else's family videos.
So I'll try to keep this short.
This year has been one of the most difficult years of my life.
For everyone who's been with me though my highs and lows
seen me at my best and worst
I love you to pieces
and my deepest gratitude.
The measure of friendship, I believe, isn't who's been around through the good times..but rather who never leaves your side through the bad and ugly.
And oh, there was a lot of bad and ugly this past year!
For those of you who seemed to slip through my fingers like the finest of sand when the going got tough..I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for being a part of my life thus far and blessing me with your acquaintance. I hope you understand my need to let you go. You've left footprints on my heart and I wish you nothing but happiness in the years to come.
So with 4 minutes to go here, on EST, I wish you all a wonderful new year.
Stay safe, be happy, love without fear.
To another year of perfect mistakes, unlimited limits and beautiful experiences!
This is your year.
xo Blue Gnome