It's already the middle of March and we've just come home from a St. Patrick's Day play date "hosted" by Leo. The turn out was great..and as I pat myself on the back for an event well planned, I'm suddenly aware of how much my life has changed in just over a year.
I made the huge life changing decision to be a stay at home mom after my maternity leave was up earlier this year. And by huge, I mean HUGE. Despite the fact that I'd been waiting for years for that kick in the derriere to finally leave the cozy and comfortable yet unbearably boring job I've been holding down for the last decade, the thought of not going back had me in moments of utter panic.
Have you ever thought of what you are, or who you are without that job description to define your exact role in life?
Don't get me wrong, I never lived my life around to my job.
But outside of that, what exactly..or who exactly was I?
Tina Jones..dog owner?
Tina Jones..daughter and sister extraordinaire?
It's a funny thing to suddenly not have a job..or a career. To suddenly drop the main thing that's defined you in society, to take a leap of faith into doing a job you've really only been doing for a year, and still fumbling along at day after day.
It's terrifying and exhilarating. Horrifying and exciting.
As of January 2nd this year, my job description is Tina Jones..mother.
I work for a wee person who barely reaches my knees standing up, who demands my full attention and has a temper tantrum when he doesn't get his naps.
Not much different from my former boss..except he was a little taller and he didn't take naps.
Although perhaps somedays, he should have.
After many sleepless nights of soul searching, I've come to the conclusion that this is absolutely the right decision. There's closure in finding that place within yourself, when for once you stop listening to your rational brain and
actually listen to your heart.
I've had a good many years of doing what I wanted, when I wanted and I feel that I owe it to this little person to give him everything I've got right now.
The silversmithing has proven to be a life saver of sorts - a hobby that's grown into something so much more, an escape from the daily "mommy life", a creative outlet so I don't lose myself completely.
And with all this said, Leo and I want to thank each and every one of you for supporting our journey.
With every purchase or encouraging comment about my work, you fuel that creative fire in me that gets me through the most trying days.
The days are finally getting longer and the morning sunshine is streaming in my kitchen window. Ah..the first day of spring.
Life is good.
And the coming months with be fantastic.
So we thank you for embracing one of a kind
and for supporting handmade.
Without people like you, there wouldn't be people like me.
xo Blue Gnome
